No really he is in NA going every day but he is still early in his recovery.

Thanks for everyone's input it's nice to know I'm not alone. Had another panic moment at school when a student said something about being paranoid. Almost spilled the beans to a ****ing teenager I'm so on edge.

In other news it's not possible for a television to speak to me, right? I heard "come off methadone and you won't be sick" in the middle of a car commercial. That can't be right? I feel like it's a message to me about my husband but I dunno if it's good or bad.

And I'm pretty sure it's not even possible. But I heard it so clearly. This on the heels of a panic attack upon arriving home and everyone I thought would be there is gone. And my husband left his phone. Turns out he just went to the store but I thought someone was dead.

Christ I am a ****ing mess.

But it has to get better. I just need to talk in group and with the therapist so I can get this **** out of me.

Thanks again everyone I am so glad you all understand.