I thought taking off while my kids were off during spring break would somehow recharge me. Off 10 days - didn't really help. Went out a trip to see Grandma...

I'm left feeling like a fake...everything externally seems to be ok, but nothing inside seems to be really settled. I'm back to work and I can barely function. I'm starting to fear that this will catch up to me and end poorly. I feel guilty for not giving it my 100% - something that now seems more like 10%...

I took the depression quiz before I left and just took it again - didn't change much. I see my p-doc tomorrow. I've thought about cancelling - after working with him 2 1/2 years - I'm not sure I made any head way.

UGH - why the emptiness?