Today is a bad day again. I feel really down, but I can't cry. I hate my life. I feel trapped and hopeless. I am trying to find a new doctor (or doctors) and I can't find what I want/need treatment-wise, but live in the largest city in the U.S. So that makes me even more frustrated.

I feel so lonely right now and so rejected (dejected?). I hate feeling like this. I really wish I could have a second chance at life.