Hey there. I can sort of relate to a little of what youre going through now. I'm 21 and only have 3 friends (with one being online and on the rocks at the moment), two of which I met in middle/high school. Since I graduated I haven't been able to make any new friends. Now, I say I've got three friends but I feel like we're drifting, which is probably my fault since I always wait for them to initiate contact because I feel like im bugging them if I do it first. That mentality is working against me but I can't seem to get over it.

The job I currently have only allows me to have contact with the elderly, which isnt really a good environment for a 21 year old to make friends.

So I basically don't talk to anyone unless they do it first, and spent most of my free time reading, gaming, or on the net. I'm looking into getting a new job that'll allow me to socialize more, and once we settle down in our new apartment (my mother and i are currently in-between houses right now) I plan to look around the area for clubs/groups I can go to.

In the meantime though I've been trying to become comfortable with doing solitary activities, Im an introvert so that really isnt hard, im more trying to ignore the fact that I dont have many friends. Keep telling myself it'll happen eventually as long as I work towards it.

Sometimes when I think I'm cooping myself up in the house too much I'll grab my ipod and just go for a long walk, or I'll get a book and find someplace nice to read. Sometimes I'll go out on a run. Since godzilla came out recently I plan to go see that, even if I'll be going alone.

I'm really sorry you're feelin the way you are, and I hope this clears up positively real soon. Have you tried meetup.com? I've given it a once over and have found some groups I'd be interested in going to, the tough part is getting over the nervousness lol. You might find some things that interest you on there, and if you do go you might find some people you click with.