I'm in a similar position right now. I'm 20 years old and I'm not in school and I'm technically unemployed. I have "seasonal" jobs. Sometimes I work 3 days a week and sometimes I go weeks without working but I always manage to have some money. I don't want to get a full/part time job because I feel like I'm gonna get too tired of the same routine everyday. I also want to pursue a career in arts even though I'm not very good at making art or making music and stuff. I agree with what you said. Having a cubicle job and going back and forth from work to home and then having two days to rest and hang with friends. I'd rather be a graphic designer than like a nurse and be my own boss and have more free time but I'm really indecisive so I'm stuck. I stress a lot about going back to school which makes me very anxious and depressed. My dad also puts me down a lot but he's been more understanding recently because I got severely depressed and anxious. I also see a lot of the people I used to go to school with, traveling, getting married and graduating and that also contributes to my anxiety.

It's kinda of ironic that I'm giving you advice because I can't even do that for myself but I guess if you have an idea about what you want to do and you love doing it then you should go for it. You only get one chance and we should not settle for a crappy job we're gonna hate forever. I don't know what I want to do and I'm not mentally stable right now but once I get better I'm gonna try to make up my mind. I hope you know that you're not alone. You can always come to talk me or anyone on here. We understand. Good luck with your music and your dad! I hope someday he understands!

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