I'm sorry you're going through this. Sounds like you're feeling stuck in more than one way.

When I am in an extreme depressive episode, my T always says to me: "Do you need more intensive support at this time?" Originally when she said that I was offended and hurt. But she explained it to me: She wasn't leaving me, but there might be times I need more help than what she is able to provide.

T's are in a sense responsible for their patients. But if for whatever reason they don't know the severity of your situation, they can't be responsible for your actions. They aren't mind readers and they definitely aren't perfect.

Ask yourself if you do require more help than what your T can provide. Are you looking to put responsibility of your own feelings, thought, choices, and actions onto someone else? I think you should address how you feel about the situation with your T. Maybe both of you will gain clarity.

I hope everything works out. Keep safe! You are important