Harley, with all due respect, I think that once the OP talks horrible and hate, repeating those words, saying that she simply feels uncomfortable trivializes her negative experience. You know, it is like getting a nightmare of a customer service experience and then receiving "we apologize for inconvenience". I do know you meant well, and do not imply that OP should feel disappointed, but I personally would feel disappointed. People talk openly on here, right, even about embarrassing things such as diapers. OP talks about something she cannot even name - that bad.

OP, I am thinking that your partner by now knows you hate it, and yet persists, so what is he, deriving pleasure from forcing you??