I cant do it anymore, i cant go on like this. Cutting and cutting and cutting, thats all I do. and for what?? a moments release, a moments relief from this hell, a moment, IS THAT IT???

No one listens, they wait and try to palm me off onto someone else, doc says see the nurse, who says see the councellor, but you have to wait for that. Why do I bother??

So i come here, and chat to some wonderful people, who try to help. I am so grateful for them, and know i wouldnt still be here if it werent for them. but i cant keep putting on you all, i often think that i should leave here, so as not to upset anyone further. I am sorry, so sorry to everyone here. I am sorry i let you down.