Does anybody else struggle with feelings of inadequacy because they don't have children? I was never sure if i wanted to children -- never thought it was important until the time came when i realized i wouldn't have any. Now, listening to my colleagues talk about their weekend and summer plans that involve family outings and affairs is enough to trigger a bad mood. I am finding it hard to find pleasure in things that ought to make me happy, because i have this fantasy of sharing these things with a child (who in my fantasy is always completely interested and excited by the things i want to be excited about). I am pushing myself to become a big sister this summer (first step, getting recommendations. yuck.) But i really long for a way to just enjoy my life as it is. (Maybe i just need a change of meds? I have been trying that too, but it is exhausting and seems ineffective.)

I hope i am not alone.