No call yet!

Plzst- my serouqel just says as needed for sleep. I am not one to take my prn so this is a big deal that I am being proactive. I understand no one is my Dr here and they're support but they can still give their opinions. Last time I saw him he taught me what they know about schizophrenia, dopamine, and anti phsycotics with graphs and everything. He also told me that I'm not allowing myself a good enough quality of life. Being proactive, taking my meds, and asking question is a huge step for me. I don't feel it would be Irresponsible to give me there opinion or give me information. I have seriously drained everyone including myself. I'm not allowing myself around the children as they don't deserve my short temper. I've even frustrated my husband. My mother in law has become really worried. She called my sister in law finding out how she help. I can't tax my support system all at ones. This is hardly 'up' for me but even this I can't afford.

I'm not sleeping, my head feels like it's going to explode and is buzzing, ext...... My biggest concern is becoming parinod of my husband again, or completely embarrassing myself in front of my in-laws or worrying them to the point they want me hospitalized.