There's hope. Its easiest to write things down and give it to my therapist then saying it out loud. I seem to also have queue words to let her know something is wrong unique, fun, and interesting moods mean I've been on the Virge of psychosis, depersonalizing, or anxious as hell, batshit crazy is manic, crappy is depressed, and really crappy is suicidal. So these to words are more descriptive of how I'm doing or feeling.

If you don't mind filling out paperwork you may want to try https://app.box.com/s/dr2mnqsxpj63naoscnil"] this with a feelings sheet. if you haven't filled one out you may want a crisis plan . if you have issues with reality at times this may help. I give both and a paragraph about each day so she knows exactly where I'm at in my mind vs. What anyone can have the courage to say. As time goes on its easier to say those messed up things out loud. I really feel therapy has really helped me accept both my illness and my symptoms. Also it helps me separate my real behavior vs. Symptoms. I think therapy will really help you deal with your living situation and find ways to help prevent how the verbal abuse effects you. Also may give you hope about your DX and deal with all those little maladapted ways you learned to cope before medicated.

I think most of us have dealt with BP as a child. There are some of us that are able to reach a balance to work, live on there own, and have a family. Some of us have to choose family, work or
Living on our own or a combination of those. Some of us need more profetional soupport than others. Usually its a combination of care at different times.

Stability tends to come in bursts for us and medication needs to be adjusted. It took my husband about two years once having the proper DX to find a medication to keep him stable with slight adjustments. My son and I aren't really that lucky. However I hinder my medical recovery and my son as a kid has limited medicated ability. So it'll take us longer but things are better even just with therapy. That said I have an extensive team to help me get well.