met with T. he texted me this morning asking if i could meet at any other time than 9am. i dont know why. i said a few times but he is booked all day. so we had to meet at 9. i texted him and said i was sorry for inconveniencing him. when i got there he said we should walk outside and thought i was grumpy because of that text. he thought i was being a smart ***. but i wasnt. i really was sorry if i inconvenienced him. he said he didnt know how i meant it so he thought i was being grouchy. lol. we cleared it up tho. we talked about my meds and i sent him an email with the article SometimesP linked to me about abilify reversing raised prolactin levels. he seemed interested and we set up a time to meet pdoc on tuesday. then we talked about school and i told him how discouraged i am from failing sociology. he tried to tell me that it wasnt really my fault. because i got psychotic. then he said that when he was in grad school his mom died and he got a medical incomplete from the school. so he got on his laptop and looked up the disability person at my school and was trying to get me to call her in his office but i was too scared. then he picked up his phone and called her. iwas like are u really calling her right now. and he was. he left her a message about what happened and left his number. i called him an a_shole. in a joking way. he said "did u really just call ur therapist an asshole?" lol. then we talked about my isolating and having a hard time leaving my apartment. he drew out something for me about it. then he showed me this new book he got about paranoia and we copied some pages out of it for me to read.

after i got out my friend texted me and we are gonna hang out before i go to work at 4. so im trying to break the pattern of isolating.

it was a good session with T. it flowed well and i talked a lot. i was worried i wouldnt have anything to say. but it went well. and im glad. i like when we have good sessions.