Yes, I am going to talk with him later today. I'm scared about how the conversation will go. He said over email that his concern is how to "proceed in a way that is genuinely workable, taking into account the way things actually are and both of our concerns about your welfare". My last T terminated me via letter for suicidal thoughts so I've got lots of fears about abandonment that are up for me right now.

But what you suggest HazelGirl sounds much more reasonable and I am sure that I coming up with a plan is what T meant in his email. Wow, this is just touching all the most hurt parts of myself and it is really scary!