BP being a lifelong illness, there will be ups and downs, but also times of smooth sailing in between. It takes time to become aware of how your illness affects you, and in which areas of your life. A therapist can help you navigate the waters. In the meantime, remember you are not alone and can lean on the caring people at PC for support. The most important thing is to have a good support system, even if it is only professionals. The friends you reach out to here can become a support network, too, if you don't have friends you can rely on.