I'm sorry. I messed up. My dad tried to talk to me. I planned what I was going to say: I think I have a mental health problem. But I just kept saying I don't know! He kept repeating my answers and started shouting really loudly, using the f word and s word a lot. Also he was angry because they bought a prom dress and £100 of it is non refundable because I don't want to go because they kind of forced me into it. I didn know what to say as to why I didn't want to go and why I want to see a doctor so he kept shouting at me. It really scared me. Then he said if I wanted to go to the doctor I had to ring up myself and get my own sorry *** over there. Then he went for a bout ten seconds and I thought he went downstairs so I started to cry because I was so scared and upset and shocked. Then he didn't go downstairs and came into my room again and said what are you going to have a little cry now? Stop taking everything so f-ing seriously! Then i ate two chocolate bars in my room that i had hidden and now i feel fat and still rubbish.

As I was writing this he came in again and said in a dangerous quiet voice I'm sorry for shouting but you really wound me up. Do you want to tell me what's the matter or do you not know? Well obviously I don't want to look at him let alone talk to him in case he gets angry again so I said I don't know and be said right. And walked out again. I don't want to have dinner with him and the rest of my family or spend the rest of half term with him when he could shout at me at any minute. I am so scared that I have considered running away and suicide. Please help. If there was ever a time I thought he was going to hit me, it was then.