It's 10:05, our session was supposed to start at 10 (1 her time) and she's not online. Even as I know it's not a catastrophe, I am shaking. Come on, nervous system, take a break.

I sent one email to let her know she was not showing online: there have been glitches a time or two in the past.

I will NOT send her more. I am worried she's too angry to talk to me, that I brought up the email and she thinks I expect too much. It's harder than it should be to remember that *she* offered the email, I never asked for it, and this is just a relatively simple situation to work out.

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It's 10:15. She is not online and did not reply to my email about her offline status. I have her home phone number. I am NOT going to call it.

Anything could have happened.... traffic, computer update issue, emergency (hope not), lost track of time...

This paying for email should NOT be a big enough deal to her to make her upset enough to skip a session.... I'm afraid she thought my tone in that last email about hoping for her to read what I wrote and honor the fee was sarcastic/angry, but it wasn't. Even still... this is only a big deal to me right? It shouldn't be ahuge issue to her, to her, it's just something to renegotiate if anything.

Unless... she feels she got too entangled with me and worries about her boundaries.