My boyfriend (ex now) is bi polar. We fell in love during a mania and at that moment i believed we would be married before the years end. and then..... denial, psychosis, trip to the hospital turned it all around. Meds helped a bit but our relationship seems to always put him at the edge of some kind of breakdown. He is the most loving, caring, sensitive man and yet when ever there is a breakdown I am to blame... It starts so small and then it becomes so magnified we are both stir crazy, in tears, break up ... then he loves me sooo much. and cycles again. He blames my issues, and my insensitivity to listen to him. We can go on for hours and beat the same subject and not get anywhere.
With in his illness he has grown leaps and bounds. He just landed a good paying job in the mental health industry. Moved out of a group home, just bought a newer car and broke up with me. I feel relief, yet I feel betrayed. I was with him through all the chaos and helped a great deal financially and emotionally. He does not believe I was a help through all of this, perhaps even the cause for the suffering and ultimately the break up. He accused me of being "borderline" so I looked it up. I have experienced in this last year what I think to be anxiety, bouts with depression (or great sadness) He gives me hope , then rips it away from me. He still has not been able to keep simple task promises to me or my daughter. Some say I am better off. He needs his space from me.... I am left lost and confused