Hello Nightworld: Welcome to PC! It sounds like you have allot of things going on right now, & not allot of energy to deal with it all. Depression does that to us. It just saps all of our strength just when we need it the most! It's good that you've found your way to PsychCentral. There are many fine people here who have experienced the same types of things you're going through. They will be happy to provide you with support & suggestions, as well. The more you post on PC, & reply to others' posts, the more you'll get out of the time you spend here. Plus, writing helps... so keep posting!