Thanks for responding... I used to only talk about my life in concrete terms, like social issues and stuff. I've never opened up about having abnormal thoughts. I don't quite believe I'm mentally ill aside from loss-related grief and some childhood issues, so its hard to talk about experiences I believe were scientifically explainable despite being abnormal. Is that what you mean by irrational thoughts? I don't quite understand college advisement. You mean like get a counseling degree? No money or time really. Already deep in debt. I'd like to eventually just feel respect at my job and earn more than min wage. I guess this is a good start, though. Thanks for the lulu tip. I'm actually confident about publishing it, but having trouble writing it. Good news is last night I had a bit of a breakthrough. Hopefully I can keep up the momentum. Do you write?