So I'm gettin in good with the girls, which is good for a change, but when it comes to the guys, I'm worried they're making a little too much fun in their making fun. Like its disrespectful. The guys are completely nice to me, but I'm worried I might make too many mistakes, that they might have formed a bad opinion of me because of something I've said or told them about my background, that because I don't want to slack off and the one kid especially doesn't hardly work, that he senses my anxiety that it might reflect badly on me and thinks I'm too much of a problem. He doesn't seem to respond to me with any leeway when I say something funny, but he does respond with enthusiasm sometimes. And we had a good first day working together, I just don't know. They kept bringing up one funny time I misheard them and though event then it was still funny, I felt like I was being blown off. But I went on today to have a good time with the girls so its not too bad. I really wanted to make this confidence boost I've been getting from remembering a time when I was fun and funny and popularity wasn't an issue, but today was a bit of a road block, like with the boys, I could only just hang in there.

And then it affects my ability to keep alert and be smart on the job. Those are the mistakes I'm talking about. I really suspect its just me, but I might be sabotaging myself and they might take a bad opinion after that. I've been told everyone makes mistakes, so then I think I just need to relax. Any advice on how to do that?