I'm a 22 yr old undergraduate student who's been on a downwards spiral for the past four years in college. I have a plethora of issues that seems to compound each other. I have a physical disability, cerebral palsy and use a power chair to get around. The intellectual challenge of academics always interested me up until my second semester of college even though I struggled producing material because of slower and less accurate fine motor skills. However, because of social isolation(as a result of discrimination from peers and the school) , I fell into a deep depression and found it more and more difficult to do academic work for my classes. Eventually, I stopped attending class in an attempt to catch op on course work. My first semester I got a 3.33 average in 4if my classes. Now I only can find that I succeed in 1 class at a time even three yrs later.

Further, I got so used to my depression that everyone around me thinks I'm doing fine because I learned how to trick them so to not bother them. Now, I'm living on my own and taking one class at a time, but because I'm so focused on staying afloat in that 1 class, I wasn't able to adequately take care of my basic needs like grocery shopping and as a result of ordering out, I wasn't able to pay my bills and now am being faced with eviction. It takes so much effort to do much of anything these days for me. Just getting up seems like a huge feat. I am in desperate need of help. I am always missing meetings and appointments. I want and need to get myself out of this, but it feels like each time I do so, I'm pulled further in. I want to make a difference and want to be reliable and useful, but can't seem to even help myself. Please help.