Ugh. I just need to vent. I know I'm being ridiculous and way over reacting.

My T allows me to text her whenever I want/need. She sees it as a way to stay connected to her during the week between our appointments and it works well. I don't expect her to respond immediately, and we have had very few problems with it as a method of communication.

Recently, though, my T didn't respond to something I had said in a way that made me feel heard (I discussed that here). I brought it up with her and she said that she was distracted and responded quickly because she was with her family and her husband had said something to her about them having family time and she was on her phone texting. And so that's why she replied in the way she did.

And that didn't bother me when she said it, but since she did, I have been thinking about it and I feel so terrible. I feel really guilty, and like I am hurting her or disrupting her life. And I guess I feel like I "got her in trouble", which is so stupid because she's a freaking adult. But I feel like it's my fault and like I shouldn't have been texting her.

It makes me want to stop texting her altogether or quit therapy because I'm hurting her life in some way. I feel so bad about it. And although, when I brought this up, she said it's okay and that she just needs to learn to respond during times that are better for her and her family, I still can't let go of feeling like it's my fault. I don't want her to start resenting me or getting angry at me because other people are angry at her or because she feels like I am too demanding. And I don't want other people to get angry at her or feel slighted by her. I know I'm worrying about things that are none of my business and my T has said many times that she will worry about boundaries, and that I don't have to, I still feel like I have to. I can't let that control go and just trust her. I have seen way too many people both inside and outside my family with terrible boundaries who way over extend themselves, and it ends up hurting them and everyone around them. I don't want that to happen to her.

Ugh. Sorry. You can ignore this.