Maybe I don't deserve to be depressed but I clearly don't deserve treatment. My GP referred me to cmht who assessed me. They refused to refer me to a psychiatrist as I am not at risk. I simply don't meet the service criteria. My GP does the best he can, but he thinks I need specialist support and there is none available.

To me it is pretty clear that I am meant to be depressed, that somewhere along the line I have done something that has put me in this situation and there is no way out. Maybe I'm not articulating this well, but it seems to me that if I deserved any better there would be a route out of this mess, but every time I try to get help the door just gets slammed in my face.

Why should anyone bother when I'm not at risk? I have a job and my own home, I'm not in financial difficulty, and I know how to stay safe. These are the things that qualify a person for specialist support, being depressed is not enough no matter how deep the depression or how long it has endured.