Ive spent a total of 5 weeks this year in the psych ward. They say i am bpd and schizoaffective. Ive been staying on my meds the best i can but they arent working. I hink I am worse now then I have been the whole time. I havent slept in days I cant think I feel like im really loosing it. When I go in its like they dont care. Im really considering killing myself. Im not even sad when I think it I feel relieved like finally I could gt some peace.