Exposure therapy for csa as she explains it, is begining to tell your story, in my case from different perpetratrors , but starting from the minimal events leading to the major event, and this includes telling, how i felt, what I heard, smelled , thought, saw, ect... describing as it happened, telling it in the present tense, as tolerated.

I remember lots of stuff, and other stuff is fuzzy, but the stuff I do remember is there, I dont remember dates times or stuff, like that, but I remember what happened.
Before exposure therapy we are doing suds for about a month.
I just want our relationship on my part to be more tight before we delve into these things, I been holding back, when I let myself be close to her, it feels good, but then i go back into the bubble. I dont want to be in that bubble if im going to discuss trauma.