I know what it's like to be alone even though i have husband and son. my husband is at work most of the day, my son is in between jobs but stays by himself most of the day. I was always a loner even in grammer school, and high school but when i got to college i was social butterfly until i was in an accident and had to drop out in my 4th year. i also had a suicide attempt in high school, i took some pills, but it didn't work. I am bipolar and schitzoaffective, have a head injury from a few accidents i was in too. I've been in several hospitals pshyc wards throughout my life, i didn't like it at first, but am now glad my parents put me there, i fought it the whole way. Well i hope you feel better soon.