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Originally Posted by lizzyjb
You sounds as if you have pulled the towell. They think you can't have help and you agree.
I don't think you deserve this. No body deserves what a depression is. This only happens. There are lucky people strong enough to deal with life issues and there is people that can't, as me. But I don't deserve this, nor you.
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I feel exactly like the rug has been pulled away from under my feet. I can't deal with the pain of this depression anymore, if I thought suicide would give me a way out, then I would. However, I believe that if this isn't hell, then I would soon discover what is if I did that, so it isn't an option for me.
I can find no other way to escape from this and hoping that I might improve is too, too painful. I feel there is no other option than to give up and accept my fate. If I allow just a glimmer of light or hope in then I will be allowing myself to get hurt again. Some risks are worth taking but when the pain is this deep then it would be a fool that exposed themself to it again.