I know it is hard enough to be your age without the added challenges of feeling as you do. I am sorry you are having to go thorugh this.

If you are feeling distressed about how you are feeling and would like to change some things in your life maybe you want to consider seeing someone professionally. They are the ones qualified to diagnose.

I hope you do well however you decide to persue some support. I would like to see you happy again too. Take care.