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Old May 24, 2014, 10:24 AM
Abby Abby is offline
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If it is possible could I ask for ongoing support this weekend? It has been a difficult few weeks with my employment and I've just yesterday been signed off sick for two weeks because my mental health is not good at all. But it is my best friends wedding so I am around a lot of people. I am so happy to be here and celebrate with her and it is really fantastic, but I have to, at the same time, accept my deteriorated mind set makes me a lot more vulnerable. Although I know quite a few people I am quite paranoid that I am doing things wrong or bad. This then triggers the self harm thoughts which are near constant and makes it hard to concentrate. Ideally I would rather not self harm in any shape or form because I want this to be a memory I can look back on with goodness but at the same time incessant thoughts and urges are really hard and part of me wonders if I should get it out of my system...except I know it'll only temporarily help. Later tonight I will attempt to do some grounding when I have more than a few minutes to myself but right now I am a bit lost and would value somewhere to talk about this stuff without it leaking into my real life. I thought I perhaps could ring my family to tell them and get help but I'm just too ashamed to tell them the graphicness of the thoughts and I need someone to hear it too.

Sorry, if you could reply that would mean a lot. I will try to check in when I can but will read any replies and very much value them!

Thank you.
Hugs from:
notz, Wysteria
Thanks for this!
notz