Anger turned in today. Angry about the kids. Angry about how I feel. Horrified at my husband's upcoming surgery. Scared about that! Help! We will be married 46 years this June and I think I really hate the idea that he has to have all this surgery on his heart. I am so grieved and I have so few outlets. I can't believe the challenges I have had with the kids. I hope I can realize that it could be better but it could be worse. I think they are trying right now. Overwhelmed! Grieved!