Okay...well I don't know where to start really. I don't know if I have a disorder or not. Or what kind of disorder if I do have one.

When I'm in a shopping mall, I always wear sunglasses because I feel like it hides me, I'm so nervous around a whole lot of people. I get all freaked out and I don't exactly know why.

I never take critism well, but I always want to please everyone. I was dating someone for 8 months who I didn't want to be with but I stayed with them to make them happy. Then I was diagnosed with Depression because I wasn't attracted to them and my sex drive went boom (Not that it's any better now, I'm on Zoloft and that doesn't help at all).

I used to cut myself, I think it was for attention because I always feel ignored or invisible. Yet I don't want to be in the spotlight but I feel like my parents ignore me and just pay attention to anything else.

I always talk to myself too, and in my mind I talk back to myself. It's hard to explain it, I have conversations, arguments etc with my head. Then I get called insane for it lol.

I always try and live like I'm in a movie or show, everything's always gotta be dramatic yet I feel really numb to all emotions. I have low self esteem and I want to believe that vampires, and magic is all real (I watch alot of Buffy).

That's all I can think of right now, I'll probably remember something later but I have the worst memory so I will.