Thank you EJ, I have worked my *** off so it is always nice to know it is worth it. Just a $5K one but they are quite regular and I expect another one with next promotion which I hope is not too far off.

I want to go home right now though

Thank you both for putting what I have had a really hard time expressing into words.

I feel like if I am functioning at work then it is not really valid to called myself 'depressed'.

heh.