my father has been sick cancer two actually for a while now....and no it feels like stuff is getting "real" every time I have asked him if he is doing ok he seems like yes he is....but now there is more testing going on..
and he is sending a copy of his living will to me.

which I don't even fully know what all that is and means to me.

I just know emotionally I really question if I can handle the passing of another family member again.

dealing with two grandparents passing and now all this on top of my regular living stresses and such. I don't know how I can deal with all this. Every time I try to think about the situation, I feel weak and fragile and I end up crumbling into a pile.

due to being bipolar and BPD I am emotionally sensitive enough as it is.