Ugh! This is killing me, CE! Simply because she is SOOO bad for you! I understand the transference, painfully so. But you have to let go! It's probably the only way you will be able to resolve it, with someone else. I am sorry, but you are ONLY hurting yourself by doing this. She was a bad T for more than one reason, and this is a MAJOR problem, not a small one that can be overlooked. She is recreating your past and harming you more, not healing you from it.

BTW - This response is the biggest reason I can't ever be a T. I would say things like this to my clients all the time, and a lot of them don't want to hear things like this.