I know that annoyance when you finally figure something out and wish someone had told you sooner. But no one else knows/knew either. I like to think that sometimes we're slow on the uptake for a reason; I know it can take me a long time to figure something out but once I "learn" something I learn it well and have the concept forever. Makes me think my "construction" is good quality :-) and such a base will be able to hold further, better learning. As time passes I've been able to see a larger picture and that the complex twists and turns of my psyche couldn't have been shown to me "easier"/sooner.