how are things today? have you gotten in touch with your therapist since the email? would calling her help? I know my T will not respond to anything I write unless I call her and ask her to read it and respond to me. I think even if I wrote that I was being unsafe, the most she would do is call the police because we are working on me being able to directly ask for what I need. Some T's don't check email as often, or have a policy of not replying to them but will reply to a phone call.
I'm sorry also that your list seems to keep growing. I found that was true for myself also. I refused to acknowledge the abuse for many, many years. It was only withint the last 3 years that I started to admit to parts of it. More has been unravelling since then. I've found that some stuff happens to this day, but because of the stuff I grew up with, I never gave it a second-thought. I was casually telling my T some stuff that happened recently and she was caught off gaurd that I did not see it as violation. It's pretty crappy how childhood abuses can carry through the rest of your life, and can mess up your perceptions of normal for so long afterwards...
I hope you are able to find some support from someone, be it your T or here, or someone else.
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