My patience is running thin in regards to my treatment. I'm so miserable I cannot stand it Depacote to me has not done anything for me. Somehow, I always seem to smile when I go to clinic so I guess they think everything is fine.

In June I will be having an evaluation to update my paperwork whatever that means. How in the hell do I not let my anxiety get the best of me so I can go in and be honest instead of faking it.

I have lived many years undiagnosed so faking it is all I've ever known. This is my last try at finally trying to get myself stable, sane, and mentally well.

1. I seem to swing up and down at times
2. Depressed a lot, except when I fake it
3. Irritable with life
4. Bored out of my ghord
5. Absolutely cannot rellax

Anyone know wher I'm coming from or am I just a 44 year old lost cause?