In reality I don't have any friends. I mean, I have online friends, but even then it's kind of lonely. The only people I literally speak to everyday are my sisters and my nephew. I used to speak to my mother too, but my relationship with her got torn up about two and a half weeks ago. Because both of my sisters are fraternal twins they have better conversations with each other then they do with me. However no matter how many conversations I have with family members they're still strangers to me because they're not very supportive or understanding. It's hard to be close to people who don't really listen or hear you.

I also feel like a lot of people on here are older than me and have spouses and kids and stuff. So it IS hard to relate. My outings consist of grocery shopping and job searches and that's about it.

I do pretty much what BeteNoire does. I just think, "Maybe it's not really worth the trouble." All I ever find is disappointment anyway. Then I start to realize that maybe it's not so much that I'm lonely because I don't have friends, but the influence to have friends because I'm surrounded by people who have other people. I don't know.

I won't even mention relationships. I will not touch that. lol