Ok, my fiancée who I've been seeing for over 1 year for some ungodly reason. She recently told me I am a narcissist and that she will leave me if I don't seek help. I have never been with someone for more than it takes me to get tired of them, and I'm thoroughly confused on how its lasted this long. I have looked up what NPD is and taken these little online quizzes, and it says I am over 90% likely a person who suffers from NPD. Honestly, I don't understand. I guess that's my problem? I don't understand what it is to relate to people, I don't understand empathy, I don't understand sympathy, and I mean the list goes on. I guess I could say I don't understand people. I want to be alone and at the same time I want to have someone in love with me, and then when they love me I want them to go away? I cant even describe myself because after she told me I am a narcissist I have been analyzing my thoughts and I am a negative cynical cold hearted person.

I apologize for the structure of my post, I have no idea how to use proper grammar! I guess admitting that was a feat in itself lol. I think the problem I am facing here is, how do I face a problem I don't think exists. I personally think this is normal to me, use people for my own means and then discard them. I tell stories so I am the good guy ALWAYS. I tell jokes at the expense of other people. I work the minimal amount to appear I work hard and then ridicule others to pretend like they work less LOL! I am ungrateful to the max and have never been thankful. I do not accept compliments they mean nothing to me.

what the **** do I do!? I feel as if psychologist are incompetent, I have gone before and they bore me greatly. I eventually just tell them what they want to hear so they leave me alone! How do I fix myself so I can understand other people and become successful without being an asshole? how do I accept praise and let it mean what it means!