Hi Celtic, it can take some time to come out of the woods. The feelings you've had/have can be very real but that doesn't have to mean that you're not going in the right direction. Which it certainly sounds like you are. Really pleased for you!!
Every urge you fight off counts, every "good" morning/afternoon/day in amongst it all counts whatever!!
And maybe practice those coping strategies a bit regardless (if you aren't already!!) so as they're more "familiar" when you really need them. And hang with us, any support we/I can give.......here for you......
Alison