Ugh, I hate that, I know exactly what you mean. I have often told T that I want to talk to him as my colleague, rather than my T. Especially since I am going to school to have the same job as he has, I hate to appear "sick."

I am starting to learn-- no more illusions, just come in and be myself. And to realize there are times in therapy to think hard, and times not to think at all-- just let go.

I hope your session goes well. Please let us know how you are!