Hello PI.
I am sorry that you feel that you are not thriving at this time. I would sincerely say that if you feel that you are not happy with the changes in your life, then you need to seek the help needed to feel better again. This may mean seeking the help in the way of a physical, and seeking a professional therapist, to assess your situation to help you regain some of the happiness you are missing at
this time. I hope the best for you in the future. Take care and good day Soidhonia