Big thanks for all of the input everyone; sorry I couldn't respond sooner. Seems like I'm in good company here...

I'm definitely looking forward to my counseling appointment in a couple of days. Hopefully they can provide me with some support and point me in the best direction. I just feel like I'm living in a big empty box. Like I walk to one end just to walk back, nothing there and nothing changes. I've been thinking about doing some volunteer work or something just so I can connect with people and feel like I'm contributing something. I really want to do the big brother thing too but I've put that on the back-burner for now. I don't feel it would be right to try to help someone else before I fix me, but I don't know that sounds a little selfish. I'm doing a 5K benefit run in a couple of weeks which I'm pretty amped about, probably since it's just something active to do.

As for the online dating thing I made a valiant effort recently but after only meeting a couple of people over the course of several months I had had enough. I'm in good physical shape and not a bad looking guy, and I've got plenty to offer, but I realized that I'm not all that great about advertising myself; I was sort of lacking the resources I needed to be successful. I think it's a great tool, but I think I'm just a little too old fashioned when it comes to meeting people anyway.

So that's pretty much it. Right now I'm alright but I could definitely feel better. I'm on some supplements to help take a bit of the edge off and I work out regularly. Nothing is going to fill that empty I feel though, so I definitely need a change in a big way. I know I can be happy, I just gotta take that first step. Hopefully the counseling is an important first.

Thanks again; I'll post back and update when I can. Best of luck to all of you as well