((((((( lisad )))))))

I wish I had some words of comfort to offer, but I'm at a lost.
I hope you'll follow through with a pdoc vs GP/Internest, I went down that route with the GP/Internest, they would tell me there was nothing wrong with me except I was "clinically depressed", "here try this,try that. . ." Yeah, one AD after another, wasted time and money, if I just would of started with a pdoc right off the bat, I would have saved money,time,the life I almost took, it's so important we let go of our pride and just get help, man, I was in denial, and then resentment of the disorder and talk therapist suggested pdoc care, but I gave in, and it took time but today I must say I'm glad I lost the resentment.
It's never easy accepting things like this, but the sooner we lose the denial, and accept something the sooner we can get working on saving ourselves.
I hope things will start looking up for you and others dealing with this stuff, a.s.a.p.
Take care,
DE