running on three hours asleep. Crying hysterically for almost three hours, snapping, letting everything just boil over. Get up the next morning and pretend like i wasn't crying all alone in the dark, fake a smile and show the world "I'm fine" but define okay? I have been facing this hell for 8 years now and nothing has come out of it, except sleepless night, nightmares, and scars on my skin. Almost ran away, quite a few times, couldn't deal with all. Going for a walk at night all alone, not knowing where to go, just following where my feet take me, as i stumble along in pain