Acceptance is one of the most difficult parts of healing. And the worse the abuse, the harder it is to accept. I'm still learning to accept abuse that happened many, many years ago. Therapy will help a great deal and I'm glad you're getting help sooner than later. Let your T know everything you're feeling and thinking. They can only help you if you're honest with them.

I know accepting what happened for me means they got away with it, and that's were I'm at right now. I think sometimes even if we can't completely accept it, we can somehow make peace with it.