But for the battle in me the day was pretty good. Still hurting from inner feelings but I did the right thing. I apologized when I needed to. I kept doors open. I stayed in there. Read that one of the things that is hard to believe is that someone who hurts you still loves you. I know that is true for my husband , son, and my daughter. I still love them too. Not so certain about my daughter in law but I also read I need to think about her point of view. She does just stay so busy. She really doesn't take time off. She works hard running her household. It is truly an interruption for her to deal with any unschedued meeting. I have been trying over the last few weeks to get some help. Not too successfully though. That is troubling too because I just keep on getting worse. My problem is I keep hurting myself on the inside because I keep putting all the blaming on me even if there is good reason why I might be hurt. Truth to tell. I have been in trouble for quite awhile . The trouble finding help hurts! Writing here is a major outlet and I am grateful for kind responses.