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Originally Posted by newtus
i know what you mean.
im sure everyone here may be sick of my complaining. but its my only place to talk too. i dont have friends either. ive been out of high school since 2008 and its a lot harder to make friends than i thought. its not as simple as getting a job or going to college etc. but things have to build time. relationships. and even then people may not like you after getting to know you. i mean i have therapy to talk but its not enough. plus i dont see the therapist that often. shes been cutting my appts for some reason. its not stable enough. oh well. at least i have a therapist to goto. ya know?
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I've always had a lot of trouble fitting in and making friends. Every since I was a small child I've had low self esteem. When I was younger I had some really crooked teeth and kids would make fun of me. My own family did too. Of course now that I'm an adult I don't have that problem anymore. But that taught me at a young age that there was something wrong with me. Plus all the abuse I was going through at the hands of my family only lead me to believe that I was not accepted. Throughout my life I've experienced things that have always made me feel not accepted. Plus all the crap that goes on inside my head doesn't help either. I don't belong any where I go and I never feel comfortable or like I fit in. So I stay to myself as much as possible and do what I have to do in order to work to support my kids. I often wonder what my life could be if I were "normal".
And for the record, I'm not tired of hearing you newtus
I always appreciate your posts and I can relate to a lot of things you say.