Me sitting around bored out of my ghord isn't helping. An old friend of mine is always saying that I need to get out, but no one seems to tolerate me long, but that is a mutual feeling. That's something I've talked with my therapist about. Just like a couple of weeks ago I came unglued in a very crowded fast food joint a couple of weeks ago. I couldn't get out of the door fast enough before I was cussing out loud, and God knows I don't need police or jail mixed into this. In fact, I'm very fortunate that my verbal outbursts haven't gotten me in legal issues in the past. However, it has gotten me fired at 3 jobs over a 9 year period. So I go around in fear and paranoia that they're just waiting to nail me when it will be at my weakest moment.

I am greatly appreciative of your responses back.