Dear Nqw4: so sorry to hear how hard it has been for you. I admire your strength in continuing with college despite the obstacles, and am impressed with your grit.

Surely you would qualify for SSI/DI, or some form of assistance that could help you through this time? Have you spoken with your Disability dept at the college (does your college have one)? They have access to info & resources we might not know of, and at least you would have some to talk with who is trained in these issues. It sounds like you would qualify for help with rent/housing as well as other services. Please forgive me if you have already been this route - I don't mean to overstep.

I'm sorry you have heard such feedback ("super negative") - it's hard to be mary sunshine when dealing with MH issues, and you sound like you are in there fighting to make things better and be considerate of others. I wish you felt comfortable to let your friends know what you are struggling with right now, but understand your reservations.

I hope posting here has been helpful for you - I know I find it incredibly supportive.
Please take care, and hope you will post further.

-Bolivar